Monday, November 5, 2007
Most days I wake up and think "Man if I could just roll over and pull the covers up over my head and stay right here everything would be wonderful!". And most of my life I have blamed this on the fact that I am NOT a morning person. Or the fact that I am just too tired. Or the fact that it is too cold to get out from under the covers. Sure those factors might play into it a little......
BUT lately I have realized something else. I tend to be a morning person, and I don't seem all that tired, and it really doesn't seem too cold to get out of bed on certain days. Like say it's Christmas morning, or I am meeting someone to go shopping or I am going to see my fiance. YEAH!
Recently I have realized that the issue to getting out of bed is a little deeper and carries over into much more of my life......basically it all comes down to the fact that I am human.
I am human.....I think about myself a lot. I don't want to get out of bed because I want to enjoy the moment and feel good.
I am human.....I want things to go my way. If I get out of bed something bad might happen or the day might not go the way I want it to. So why not just avoid it?
I am human.....I don't care that much about others. People sometimes annoy me and I just don't want to have to put up with them. So I'll stay in bed so I don't have to be around anyone or put up with anyone.
I am human......I am weak. I have to act like I am awake and full of energy as I head into my job when in reality I am tired of doing and giving.
Yeah I think that tends to be the problem most mornings when I don't want to push back those covers.
AND I think that tends to be the problem most days when I don't want to push myself out of the way and really live my life for Christ rather than myself.
There will be days when I am tired but a mulitude of people (students) will be before me waiting to learn something......God I need Your strength.
There will be days when I want to be alone but will be surrounded by others needing someone to listen.......God I need your patience and kindness.
There will be days when I will want things to go my way.........God I need your understanding in every situation.
There will be days when I want to do something for ME...........God remind me what life is really about.